I'm sorry that this post is coming to you at the end of the day!

Hey, hey, hey! 

I'm sorry that this post is coming to you at the end of the day! It's for a positive reason, though xD. I spent all morning working on things for the upcoming birthday karaoke. I'm happy to say that I've already gotten about 13 of the song files back from people that are joining, and as I said, if everything goes well, we'll have about 30 songs in total on the actual day. If everything doesn't go to plan, that's all good. Honestly I'm so happy that so many incredible people were interested, and I've got a good amount already so I can just make it a normal karaoke with some special duets if something terrible happens and no-one else can deliver their songs, lol.

Anyway, distractions! Today I have the honour of sharing some gorgeous Fuuniverse fanservice from Buryooooo. This one is a drawing of poor little me being teased by Legatus, Shepherd, and Alan Binc in Buryooooo's style. I love how soft Alan and Sheppy look while the thighs and chest still be popping, lmao. 

I'm terribly sorry that this has been another slow month for streaming, but it's all hopefully in favour of eventually being able to do much more in the future. So far I've had the floors finished in my house (and took a picture to show the before and after for you all to see how horrific they were before lmao) and been preparing things to move out of my closet and hopefully have a much better streaming set up in the future. Hopefully, both in terms of audio quality and giving me the ability to stream more comfortably and reliably. It's been a big project, but I'm very excited to see if it works out in the end and allows me to stream more consistently for everyone. And I mean everyone! I've made no secret of the fact that I love streaming, too. The times I'm completely unable to always make me upset for a lot of reasons, but the main one is just because streaming is my passion, and I love getting to spend that time with you all. So, hopefully, I can fix that in the future with some hard work in the present!

Outside of that, I'm so glad that the Noctyx cover of Virtual to Live has finally been released! We all worked so hard on it, and as soon as I heard CReiFu's mix, I was terribly excited to share it with you all! We all sound so good in it, and the video looks amazing with all the amazing artists who contributed artwork to the project for us! That isn't the last surprise that Noctyx will be releasing this month if everything goes according to plan, though the next one is currently scheduled to release right at the end of the month, so it may be delayed until early April if any weirdness goes on. That one is going to be a fun little surprise that I know everyone will enjoy and then as I've teased a little too hard there's something a bit bigger happening in mid-April that fans have been wishing for since we debuted. To be honest, it's something that I've always been kind of afraid of, but also hoping for deep down too. That's as far as I will go into alluding towards that, but it's safe to say it will be a big moment for Noctyx and me in general.

I think joining Nijisanji and, more specifically, Noctyx has changed the trajectory of my life in more ways than I can honestly put into words. I said the other night during our chat after the premiere of VtL that I don't think I would have been able to make it these three years if I hadn't gotten so lucky with my wave mates. Noctyx are all so talented that it blows my mind sometimes, and I get into my own head at times and feel like I'm holding them back from achieving their true potential as a unit. They've never let me wallow in that kind of headspace for too long though and always lift me up with kind words about my own work and even join me for crazy shit like Legatus 505 and other dumb ideas I have xD. They always support me, even in the times when I start to doubt myself, and it's honestly started to finally rub off on me. I see my self-worth even if it isn't the type of thing that goes mainstream or is particularly marketable. I'm happy with who I am and working towards the person I want to be and things that I want to achieve.

So, sorry that I've been on an emotional kick recently of trying to accomplish things with Noctyx and putting a lot of my time into projects like the white day stream and upcoming birthday karaoke. Coming back from the sad time I had at the end of 2024 I really wanted to make some big memories, but then my condition kind of got all fucky wucky and held me back from that, which led to delays and me not being able to keep up the normal streams with you guys. It has sucked not being able to stream more often or join things like NijiEnchanted, which seem right up my alley and are bringing people back into the spirit of Niji EN again. 

Once more, I've tried to do my own kind of thing though, and adapted me and Ren's birthdays to be the first open totsu that the new wave can join as well as all the usual suspects. I don't know if it will actually go well, but I'd love for that open totsu to be the first of many for the branch and bring back the kind of atmosphere we had when I first joined of more similar events where all kind of random people interact and bounce off of eachother. One of my first huge memories in Niji was joining Petra's Getting Over It Stream because I was too nervous to sleep and making the joke about the Fu in Fuuchan standing for fudanshi and really just breaking the ice with people I didn't know yet. It's an amazing feeling that I know passes over to the fans, too, as someone who often watches these amazing people from the outside, too.  

The karaoke... that's more for me than anyone else xD. I'm not even going to lie, I just really like singing and wanted to be able to sing with all the incredibly talented people I'm surrounded by without the pressure on them being there live. So giving everyone a full month to practice and record to whatever level they'd like felt like a great way for me to be selfish xD. I do hope it will be entertaining for all of you when it finally happens on 03/26, and I'll be releasing the set list for the karaoke this Sunday. By that point, I'll know for sure everyone who will be singing with me and excited to share it with everyone.

I still haven't finished that final quarter of a chapter of Legatus 505 lmao! I've been too busy with a thousand little projects, but I'm so hyped to wrap it up when I have time! The final 6 chapters are full of so much craziness that I can't wait to share with you all! It's also wild to think I've been working on it for three years, and I'm about to actually have it complete =O. That's huge! Like the birthday artwork coming full circle from Legatus to Archivist, it feels like the closing of a chapter even though it's actually a literal story in this case, haha. When one chapter ends, a new one begins! I'm ready for us to move onto a new chapter and find another story to tell together in this community. 

So finally, thank you all for being here too, my Comfydants. I said that I wouldn't have made it this far without Noctyx, but I also wouldn't have made it past the first month without you. There's a reason that streaming matters so much to me, and that's because of how much support you always give to me and all the joy that our time together brings me. If Noctyx are the ones that make me want to level up and work harder as an entertainer and creator, the Comfydants are the ones that make me want to be a happier, healthier person. 

I'm always being told to just do the things that bring me joy and work on things I want to achieve, and I can honestly say that I've been doing that for a while now. You all gave me not just the means to do that but also the motivation to keep going forward and get through some of my darkest times. It has been an incredible 3 years, but it wouldn't have been without all of you. So please, never feel like you're not doing enough for me or the community. Just by being part of the sheep pile, you are supporting everyone here with your warmth, kindness, and delicious lamb meat, lmao. Couldn't let it get emotional without a cannibalism joke xP. Genuinely, though, I'm hitting a changing point in my life where I feel more confident and happy just doing the things that I want to do and working on the things I want to work on. If there is anything that I wish for this community, it's that every member of this community does the same for themselves. 

Those same words you always tell to me: 

Be cringe but free. 

Be confident (especially as a Comfydant, but in general xP.) 

Do the things that bring you joy. 

Find your passion and pursue it. Not for anyone else's approval, but for your own wellbeing. 

Don't discredit the positive. 

I baaa you. 

All of these are things that I hope you'll tell to yourselves too, just like I'm telling them to you now.

 You're all far more amazing than you'll ever know, and I want you to see that someday and hopefully share that with the world. The world would be a much less beautiful place without all of you flourishing in it. Hopefully, it will become a better place as we all share our own beauty with it.  

Anyway. Emotional stuffs over! Enjoy the sexy Fulgatus art, and we can all go back to being silly, cringe sheep. As always, do not be led astray, my Comfydants. I hope you have a lovely... timezone, whenever you read this, and I will catch you next time!